As
we Travel Lifes Journey we all have our OWN Stories. I have traveled
from addiction, neglect, depression, low self esteem, family member OD
and death, best friend OD and death.
My earliest childhood memory is only 7 I don't know whats back there that I cannot see and yes at times it scares me. But I feel its because I lost my Uncle my Best Friend at age 7 in the 70s due to a drug overdose. I have drug use, alcoholism in my family life as a young child I saw a lot that one should not see. I come to learn more as an adult that I do not even remember.
As I moved to Oregon when I was 11 leaving California was a hard move for me. I was kind of popular but I was over weight then and made fun of there. When I moved here I became pregnant at the age of 15 had my first baby by 16. As times passed I had all three babies by the age of twenty. I took anti-depressants due to I was in a verbally abusive relationship had very low self esteem. When I walked I walked with head bowed for I was ashamed of who I was and had a hard time looking people in the eyes. In my years I have tried drug use in my earlier years and thank god they did not suck me in. I have seen lives lost, and lives ruined, children abandoned just breaks my heart.
As I struggled with weight and was still called names as an adult two years ago as I stepped on that scale and it was 243 I decided to fight back. I did not like what I had seen and it scared the hell out of me. So as I fight to become who I dream to be its not easy I still have struggles. I am human I eat and I love ice cream LOL I have cried tears and I struggle on some days to even Push Play. I feel the changes but the scale and tape fail to give me the pleasure of showing there success. But the point is to NEVER give up on your dreams. You can over come anything if it means as much to you as it does to me.
I love who I am today and I love HOW I feel. Its not yet where I want to be but I fight for it daily
I enjoy your private messages and your support for being real and being me. While improving and taking MY LIFE back I Love to Inspire and Change the Lives around me. For YOU to deserve to believe in YOURSELVES and Your Families do NEED you in their EVERY TOMORROW. Some of you state its to expensive, have you looked at the healthcare bill of someone sick on 5 meds a day with doctors visits weekly?? That is hella expensive. Look at your children will you see them graduate, walk her down the isle, watch them grow into proud adults and bear your grandchildren??? If you dont like what or who you see ITS TIME TO CHANGE IT.
My earliest childhood memory is only 7 I don't know whats back there that I cannot see and yes at times it scares me. But I feel its because I lost my Uncle my Best Friend at age 7 in the 70s due to a drug overdose. I have drug use, alcoholism in my family life as a young child I saw a lot that one should not see. I come to learn more as an adult that I do not even remember.
As I moved to Oregon when I was 11 leaving California was a hard move for me. I was kind of popular but I was over weight then and made fun of there. When I moved here I became pregnant at the age of 15 had my first baby by 16. As times passed I had all three babies by the age of twenty. I took anti-depressants due to I was in a verbally abusive relationship had very low self esteem. When I walked I walked with head bowed for I was ashamed of who I was and had a hard time looking people in the eyes. In my years I have tried drug use in my earlier years and thank god they did not suck me in. I have seen lives lost, and lives ruined, children abandoned just breaks my heart.
As I struggled with weight and was still called names as an adult two years ago as I stepped on that scale and it was 243 I decided to fight back. I did not like what I had seen and it scared the hell out of me. So as I fight to become who I dream to be its not easy I still have struggles. I am human I eat and I love ice cream LOL I have cried tears and I struggle on some days to even Push Play. I feel the changes but the scale and tape fail to give me the pleasure of showing there success. But the point is to NEVER give up on your dreams. You can over come anything if it means as much to you as it does to me.
I love who I am today and I love HOW I feel. Its not yet where I want to be but I fight for it daily
I enjoy your private messages and your support for being real and being me. While improving and taking MY LIFE back I Love to Inspire and Change the Lives around me. For YOU to deserve to believe in YOURSELVES and Your Families do NEED you in their EVERY TOMORROW. Some of you state its to expensive, have you looked at the healthcare bill of someone sick on 5 meds a day with doctors visits weekly?? That is hella expensive. Look at your children will you see them graduate, walk her down the isle, watch them grow into proud adults and bear your grandchildren??? If you dont like what or who you see ITS TIME TO CHANGE IT.
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